Stress, Excitement & Fulfilment!

Phew.

Yes I know I haven't been around, internet-ically speaking for a while.

Life has been a series of tasks and steep learning curves and new insights and self-disclosures; and that's all just preparing for marriage, never mind work!!!

Life has been very very busy.

I am enjoying it though, immensly. Getting to know the love of my life, not just how she kisses, or what her favourite colour is, or other shallow things; getting to know her real, beating, honest beautiful heart, finding out what makes her want to get up in the morning, and what makes her feel alive, and what her dreams are. All that and more is what I've been discovering as we've chatted on the phone over the last few weeks since she's been back in the States.

I'm so thankful to God that I had the nouse and wherewithal to buy these usb phones that cost us nothing to use, apart from our own internet connections. Yes, sometimes the signal is bad, and when you're having a deep conversation and the connection drops, or times out, or stalls, it can be extremely frustrating, and in my case, can result in more than a little internet rage towards technology in general. On the plus side though, it is SO nice to hear the voice of the one I love so clearly across 4,000 miles of cable and wireless connections, under seas and continents and roads and houses. And the fact that there's only minimal delay.

This week I have two staff appraisals, (it's that time of year again!) four different stock orders to source from four different companies, month-end accounts to do in one night, the evening before I fly out to spend two glorious weeks with the love of my life... I'm SOOOOO looking forward to it!!

When you start your working day at 7:30am, and finish at 6pm for 6 weeks non-stop, with about 30 mins on average for a lunch break, sometimes munching away while you work, a holiday seems even more a pleasant idea than it is usually! Not that I'll be resting all the time I'm there.

I have wedding rings to buy, a honeymoon to pay for, my sister's bridesmaid's dress to pay for,
and a very in-depth conversation with the British Embassy in New York to start with... Phew I'm tired already!!

There is one consolation though: I get to spend time with my stunningly beautiful fiance whose lips and arms I've missed terribly over the last five weeks.

*contented sigh*

It's a trip tinged with bittersweet emotions though: this will be the last time we see each other for five months, till the week before our wedding. FIVE MONTHS!!

*sigh*

We'll cope, I know we will. She has deadlines, so do I, she has new areas of work to explore, plan and think about, I have a new home to find for us, and furnish; she has new dreams to birth, and old ones to let die; I have new roles to start and old ones to relinquish. It's gonna be a busy few months for us, but it'll be exciting!

I've never felt so fulfilled and happy as I do now. It's very hard being apart 90% of the time, but when we're together finally as husband and wife, it's all gonna be worth it.

:-)