Even though you drive me nuts sometimes, and living at home with you still is "interesting", we do have a lot of laughs and I'm glad you've kept your vows to each other.
It gives me hope that marriage for me when/if it happens could actually work. Thankyou for the example of two people committing to spend a lifetime together, no matter what.
I hope you have a good day today.
:-)
Friday, August 25, 2006
HAPPY 33rd ANNIVERSARY Mum & Dad!! :-)
So...
Apparently I'm a girl...
I've just heard a customer before I came upstairs to start my lunch, whilst looking round the shop for a book, say: "I'll just ask the girl behind the counter" - He was reffering to me!!
It's not as if my hair's THAT long yet!!!
The cheek!!!
I'm going to sulk now...
Thursday, August 24, 2006
More!!!
I try to vlog again, my camera is really bad!!!I show you my room, and I'm sure you must be bored.
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My First Vlog!!
This is so bad it's painful...I am just using a normal camera with picture and sound, people!!It will get better once I get a camcorder lolIt's 30 seconds an it'll make you laugh, it's so bad!!
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Crap. Lot's of it.
You know one of those moments in life when you want to throw your hands up and resign as being part of the human race, and wish to be in the place called heaven now?
I'm having one of those days.
So much crap is happening to people who I care about at the moment, and I feel absolutely helpless to do anything about it. So many of my friends seem to be oppressed by life and circumstances, that lead to bad choices and further oppression.
One of my friends has been suspended for shouting at a child who kicked him. He's a youthworker, has had a problem with his larynx and voice since his mum died about eighteen months ago, and has had to get used to speaking in whispers. None of the doctors know what's causing the problem. Just at the moment he got angry with a kid who literally kicked out at him, his voice temporarily came back, and now he's been suspended because of it. He's had several jobs down the years, and he just needs a break. He's only 29.
The homeless guy I talk to just wants to escape his drug habit and alchohol problem and travel. He wants to be clean, but he doesn't want to be press-ganged into believing something he does'nt. He wants to be respected as a human being, not a potential "convert to the cause". Why is that unreasonable? He doesn't steal for his habit, and shows respect to me whenever I chat to him, and tries not to show bitterness most of the time, 'cos he thinks he shud'nt.
The heroin addict who comes into the shop to talk to me, who's desperation I can see in his eyes, who talks about his ex-wife all the time, and is still clearly in love with her, but knows he can't go back.
The 20 yr old lad who used to be in my sunday school class, who's a mental age is about 11, who wanders round town on his own all day when he's not in college, because no one really cares about him enough to spend time with him, except a very few. He comes into the shop and talks for hours with me, and we laugh and joke, and try to go to the cinema as often as possible on my saturdays off. He doesn't really appear self-aware enough to know that no-one cares about him.... or does he? He may be mentally impaired, but that doesn't mean he's stupid. When he goes home at night to an empty house cos his mum's gone out, and when he sits for hours on his own at home playing on the playstation, does he know then?
And me?
I believe in a God who's above all this crap, who can lift people out of these situations, who's only response towards the creatures he made is love. I'm struggling myself at the moment to come to terms with how my body is changing with M.S, but more than that, I'm really struggling with where God fits into all this.
Why aren't you doing anything God?
Why can't you intervene?
All I want is for these people to know, for once in their lives, that they're special, and valued, and worthy of friendship and relationship with another human being; that the world is not just about them getting crushed; that even if they have had crap most of their lives, that there are some people who care, and that there is a Heavenly Father who cares. I want them to know that they can have a relationship with You and not have to do anything in return, that You will love them no matter what, totally unconditionally, not depending on whether they give or whether they're "good enough".
Why God?
Why?
Sunday, August 20, 2006
I've Been Inspired...
That's it.
The time has come...
I know what to ask for, for christmas now. January 2007 will see the start of a whole new vlogging experience: The Hobbit Vlog!!
I've decided I want to become a vlogger, I have been inspired by the sheer craziness of Ike.
I need to save up for a digicam now...
Watch this space, cos in a few months there'll be videos on here, tho not anything like the quality of these...
This was an advance notice, I promise to uphold it, if I can find a hobbit sized tripod... lol
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Sleeeeeeep.... I neeeeeeed sleeeeeeeeeeep....
I went to the wedding, it was great, v emotional!
I didn't dance 'cos my legs decided to turn to jelly, and I could hardly stand up. I managed to disguise it tho, 'cos everyone said I looked tired!! I did manage to take some photos, only about 50 or so though, 'cos in the end I couldn't be bothered! lol
I had a great time, although I finally got in at 1 am and had to be up at 7 for work. I'm really, really knackered!! Today is going to be a longggggggggg day.... !
Dave & Rachel - Congratulations!!
:-)
Friday, August 18, 2006
Tommorrow...
- I am working 'till 12.
- I am going to my friend's wedding.
- I am wearing a suit!
- I'm going to take lots of pictures with my camera.
- I will look smart for a change!
- I'll hopefully feel better and less ill.
- I'll be out all day, and not back 'till late!
- I'll be a step further on than yesterday!
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
I'm Currently Reading This...
It's strange, although I've been diagnosed with m.s. for three and a half years now, I'm still living a bit in denial, even though I'm injecting every day with medication. So far I've got halfway through this book, and I've recognised and resonated with all of the symptoms the author describes having experienced in his own battle with the disease.
I bought the book last week when I saw it advertised; what attracted me was that it is written by someone who has m.s. and is not just another "expert's" advice. It's a book ground in reality, and very personally written. I'll wait to get to the end of the book, but so far it's making me wonder whether I should ask my specialist to have a phsychological test to determine if I have cognitive symptoms as well as physical.
I don't normally talk about my experience with m.s, mainly because I think a part of me doesn't want to admit it, to acknoledge it's existence, but when I get weeks like this week, when it kind of throws me a metaphorical punch in the gut, I'd be a fool to deny that it affects my life.
I need to slow down a bit more in work I think, which isn't easy, being in the role of Deputy Manager, but the stress I put my body under is starting to show a bit I think. I have a wedding to go to on Friday, and because the manager forgot, he didn't give me the day off. (he's on holiday at the moment) So, I've had to split my day off this week into two half days, so I could go to my friends wedding and the reception! I finished work at 1 today, and will finish at 12 on Friday, and rush to the wedding which starts at 1!
I'm also thinking of making a complete career change, to find a less stressful job, and because my wage is so poor, ideally a part time one that is exactly the same pay that I'm on now!
We'll wait and see, I don't know what I want to do to be honest.
I came home this afternoon completely exhausted, and I all I did today was lift a box of very heavy books, and I used up all my energy reserves doing it. My legs felt like two lumps of lead walking home from the station today, and I was glad to get in, shut the door behind me, and collapse and veg on my couch all afternoon watching films, chilling out. I'm so tired at the moment that I think it's affecting my eyesight aswell, an old symptom that constantly re-occurs.
In short, I'm a bit run down. When you're run down, it's like holding out a personal invite to your symptoms, they all come running at once, so I find it's best to just sit down and recharge.
If I'm feeling up to it, I might go to the gym after work tommorrow and try some gentle cycling, and see what happens to my legs....
Oh well, must stop moaning and grumbling and get on with it I suppose...
I Have A New Job!! (WEll A Virtual One Anyway!!)
I've just started working online here!
Please visit, it's a great place so far!!
If you'd like to come and stay for a while, please do, and sign in the guest book after your stay...
Sunday, August 13, 2006
A Guy Could Get A Complex You Know...
A small sample of some of the spam emails I've been getting recently...
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Try blahblahblahdating!"
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Sign up for losers2work!"
I'm trying not to lash out at my junk mailbox, I really am...!
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